Just be.

It's a hard day. Sometimes you just have to accept that. Today will be hard. This week will be hard. This month will be hard. Whatever it is for you. For me, today is a hard day. There are a few days every year that I will always have memories about; memories that have changed the path of my life and shaken the very ground I walk on. One of those days is today. Today is a hard day. I knew it was going to be a hard day. Sometimes, when there are days like these, moments like these, maybe it is best not to fight them. Fighting yourself is the HARDEST thing to do with depression. All of the energy is lost but still they want me to fight for myself, fight to live, fight to be happy? ALWAYS fight to live, but sometimes, on bad days, maybe don't fight so much to feel happy. Maybe just let yourself rest some. Take a walk, breathe. Don't fight the feelings, the memories, the pain. Just let it be for today, and know that tomorrow when you wake up, and you will wake up, it will be a new day, with new memories, and new feelings. Sometimes there are hard days day after day after day and they are so so tiring and frustrating and painful. But it will stop, and it does stop eventually. I promise you this. Give yourself a rest and a break. Be kind to yourself on hard days and know it is okay not to fight to be "better" today. It is okay to just fight to be.
-K