Update: 13 Reasons Why.

Still slowly making it through 13 Reasons Why. Very slowly. Why, you ask? Why am I not binging the entire thing like I do with everything else I start on Netflix? Well, you see, I have to watch about half an episode and then pause because it starts hurting my heart and making me feel like I'm falling apart. Everything that happens has happened to someone somewhere. I see glimpses of what could have happened if I succeeded in my attempt. I also see things I suffered through myself. The loneliness is the worst. It will always be the worst. Sad I can deal with. Tired? No problem. But the loneliness and the pure emptiness that comes with it, it can tear me apart in a second. I hate watching it and I hate knowing there are so many people out there that have gone through feeling that way or will go through feeling that way. I hate that I have been there and still struggle to convince myself I'm not alone. I hate everything about suicide and depression and loneliness and bullying and everything about mental illness. I wish I could fix it, but if this little blog I have reaches just one person and makes them feel less alone, that is all that matters. No one is truly alone. YOU are not alone, ever.

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